I WASN'T LOOKING

I WASN'T LOOKING

There was a journey that I just made.

It started out as a game that just had to be played.

I wasn't looking for love, I wanted to stay free.

I may not have been looking for love, but it was looking for me.

I just wanted someone to hold, to touch, and kiss.

I didn't want someone to own, to keep, or miss.

What I got was someone that stole my heart.

Someone that made me love her right from the start.

I wasn't looking for someone that would always be by my side.

But I found someone that grabbed my sole and took it for a ride.

I just wanted someone I could make feel good, someone I could push to the brink.

But there I was falling in love before I could even blink.

I wasn't looking for forever and ever amen.

I was just looking for someone to help me sin.

What I found was someone that made me feel alive.

But all I have now are the memories that will always survive.

I wasn't looking to be first on someone's list.

I just wanted someone to call me from time to time to share a little bliss.

Then I found myself on someone's list all the way at the top.

I found that it really felt good and I didn’t want it to stop.

Then, I wasn't looking for anyone but her,

And time went by so fast, everything seemed like a blur.

What I got was someone to hold that I could never keep.

What I found was someone that in the end would make me weep.

I wasn't looking for a love that would always be around.

I wasn't looking, but I thought that's what I had found.

She thought I couldn't give her what she needed and that was a must.

I found someone that didn't believe in me, there was no trust.

I wasn't looking for someone to break my heart.

I guess I was doomed for it to end this way right from the start.

When she was looking for a love, I was looking for a lover.

By the time I found her love she was gone, and I will never recover.

STANLEY HENDRIX

12/16/09

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GOODBYE BABY

GOODBYE BABY

You knew I wasn't free from the first day we met.

You knew that what you could see is what you would get.

Why did you have to make me love you, why didn't you just let me be?

Why did you steal my heart just to set me free?

To get through this life I try to live by the golden rule.

When it comes to how to treat other people, it's the greatest tool.

I would have never done to you what you did to me, because it just wasn't right.

I didn't even know there was anything wrong, hell; we didn't even have a fight.

I know now, my love wasn't what you needed.

If you felt anything for me, that's not the way I would have been treated.

You wouldn't have gone anywhere, you would have stayed.

The more I think about it, the more I think I got played.

You said what you wanted I couldn't give, that there was more that you would need.

I wonder if to make someone else's love blossom, that I was the seed.

Was I there until someone better came along to steal your heart?

Or was there someone else that you wanted from the very start?

If you cared you would have talked to me and told me you wanted more.

You wouldn't have just walked away and forever shut the door.

I've learned to always treat the one you love like someone is trying to take them away.

One day they could be gone, and there would be things you wish you had time to say.

I see you've found the love that was meant just for you.

Now I see you've finally found that love that is oh so true.

Now that I've opened my eyes, there are things that I can see.

Now I know there never was a place in your life for me.

I don't usually stay where I'm not wanted and you've proved that to be the case.

I know you don't love me because you've moved on to another place.

Because I love you, I want what's best for you, I hope you do know.

The best thing for you is for me to just disappear, so it's time for me to go.

I really do wish you the best from the bottom of my heart.

And if this is the love you want for the rest of your life, I hope you never part.

But no matter how much time passes, wherever you go and whatever you do,

Just remember that out there somewhere there's an old fool still in love with you.

STANLEY HENDRIX

11/11/09

 My book of poems "DEEP DARK SECRETS" is available online at WWW.PUBLISHAMERICA.COM, WWW.BOOKSAMILLION.COM, WWW.BARNESANDNOBLE.COM, WWW.AMAZON.COM,and WWW.BORDERS.COM

I'LL BE THERE

I'LL BE THERE

You left me but there are things that you will see that will make things start.

When you see the places we went and the things we had done, I will fill your heart.

I will always be there, in a sight, in a smell, or a stare.

You will hear a voice saying I will always be here, as it whispers in your ear.

There'll be a smile that you'll have to explain,

As you think about a kiss in the rain.

There'll be a chill that goes up your spine,

As you think about our lips touching for the very first time.

There'll be our favorite place to eat,

If you can go in and take a seat.

Memories will make you sigh, you may even cry,

Because as you look across the table, there am I.

There’s a vampire movie that we saw number one and you're a big fan.

When you go to see number two, you'll feel me holding your hand.

The smell of popcorn will invade your senses, it will be everywhere.

The buttery aroma will make you think of me and I'll be there.

One day when you're thinking about something else, I will pop into your head.

It will just be some old memory of something I had said.

The wind will blow your hair and you'll feel a brush on your cheek.

Me gazing deep into your eyes will be the memory you seek.

You'll pass by places where we spent the night.

You'll think about a time when things were just right.

There were nights that started out just to cuddle.

We ended up making love but it started out really subtle.

Someday when you pass by the places we used to meet,

Maybe you'll feel something that makes your heart fall to your feet.

This is where we used to talk for hours on end.

It's where we got to know each other; it's where it all really began.

When you see the glasses that we used to drink cherry wine,

You will think of when I was yours and you were mine.

When you’re old and gray, something will make you think of someone who once cared.

An uncontrollable feeling will invade your heart, you'll close your eyes and I'll be there.

STANLEY HENDRIX

11/10/09

 My book of poems "DEEP DARK SECRETS" is available online at WWW.PUBLISHAMERICA.COM, WWW.BOOKSAMILLION.COM, WWW.BARNESANDNOBLE.COM, WWW.AMAZON.COM,and WWW.BORDERS.COM